Waking up my senses!

Well, like most of you life has also been keeping me busy - work, activities of daily living, social life, eat, sleep, and so on. I like to think I have a strong hold on everything that is going on, but today I think I finally woke and up and realized that that is not true. In the midst of everything that is going on I think I forgot to breath, its like I've been holding my breath and never even realized it. When did it become spring? fuck its almost summer for that matter. I came home after having an awesome day and sat just down, just sat still - doing nothing! Not even reading one of my million books. And that is when I heard the lawn mower outside, and heard the birds chirping, and smelt the fresh cut grass, I looked out the window and saw people walking hand in hand, kids playing, and others walking their dog. It then dawned on me, "hey, it beautiful outside, when did it become spring!". I have been so busy getting my career started, its like everything else stopped. So, I have now decided that today (tonight) I will begin over (in some senses), I have so much more to offer people in my life and people that I haven't even met yet, it time to start living. I'm going to put my past in the past and start a future. Just last night I told a friend I was proud of myself - everything I said I'd ever do, I've done, but now I realize I want to do more, I'll set new goals and accomplish them,and I won't stop there,I'll keep going and going. Right now this very minute I feel smart, friendly, funny, beautiful and creative. Life is more than work and now that I have said it, I'm gonna live it!